Wednesday, May 23, 2007 | Wednesday, May 23, 2007

We all crash and burn;
the tears come only eleven hours after;
oh when girl would you ever learn.
Would there in my heart be anymore laughter.

Sheer lovely poetry you sprouted;
perhaps one could even say my muse you were;
you gave me inspiration;
the facade's broke now,
it's gone...i can't write anymore.

Monday, May 21, 2007 | Monday, May 21, 2007

This weekend has been too happening and too expensive for me to fully grasp.

Virgin outing to MOS was interesting to say the least, i finally know that i can dance!!

..alcohol makes the best teacher.

I've got a nice tan from sat's sentosa outing but a traumatising experience at the breakwater-island thing (think cockroaches on sand side and little ugly fishes you arent certain won't swim into your swimsuit on the water side and you get the picture) was pretty well, traumatising.

Woke up at 3am friday morning to see nathan off at airport, was pretty bummed out i was the only idiot sending him off at that unearthly hour, but i guess i didnt regret it. (:

I would like to say it's summer, it's hot blue nice sweaty, ideal for (tropicalflings). Sometimes though just being more decisive and certain would save on alot of pimple inducing moments.

Saturday, May 12, 2007 | Saturday, May 12, 2007

Close every door to me
Hide all the world from me
Bar all the windows
And shut out the light
Do what you want with me
Hate me and laugh at me
Darken my daytime
And torture my night
If my life were important I
Would ask will i live or die
But i know the answers lie
Far from this world

Just give me a number
Instead of my name
Forget all about me
And let me decay
I do not matter
I'm only one person
Destroy me completely
Then throw me away

Probably one of andrew lloyd webber's lesser known musicals - joseph and the technicoloured dreamcoat. But still more precious to me than phantom. I've always wondered why this particular song in the entire musical has appealed the most to me since twelve. Was it the words that sounded so familiar or the haunting melody?

I remember why now.

Thursday, May 10, 2007 | Thursday, May 10, 2007

My heart nearly burst with joy today when anna called me 'yu-nis!' for the first time ever when i walked in. I never knew for certain that she could place my name to my face till now. I was willing to do almost anything for her. Me. Aunt love anna. I've figured out a way to train my right arm for bowling. Carrying anna using one arm is excruciating after a few minutes, so now i get a good cuddly weight to train on during weekends. (:

I can play with her now! She comes to me to be carried! She carresses my hair and face on her own initiative! I am happy aunt!

So what if she drops my handphone. So what if she (sigh) breaks my plastic cup. So what if she leaves a trail of saliva on my hp casing.

I happy aunt!

Sunday, May 06, 2007 | Sunday, May 06, 2007

At 4.44am in the morning you need a little something more than chocolate to make you smile. A cup of jelly wouldn't do it as well. Maybe cos it's not raspberry haha.

To get out of the boat and confront the waves or to stay in the boat forever as a boat potato growing spuds.
To square shoulders and face down goliath having faith that three tiny stones would take care of him, or to surrender the pathetic sling to him and be his slave forever.
To make growth my constant element in life, or make fear my master.

You get high; you shoot down great monsters. You sober up, you start wondering where the real monsters really are and whether one pathetic machine gun is enough to take them all.

You know, i think it's time to start flinging off all the spuds. Only thing is, i don't know how to. And i'm too afraid it might hurt. They grow in real deep.

Thursday, May 03, 2007 | Thursday, May 03, 2007

A Birthday Poem too good to keep it for myself

I was with you before you existed,
in My thoughts I fashioned your design.
With the utmost care I created you,
you are My beloved and you are mine.

I was with you when you took your first breath
what tears of joy filled my eyes.
Gently I breathed life into you,
gave you strength and bid you arise.

I was with you in your laughter,
your joy brings smiles to my face,
Like sweet music from a thousand bells,
echoing throughout heaven and space.

I was with you when you felt lonely
when you were scared of the unknown
Take heart and fear not, I whispered
Never will I leave you alone.

I was with you when you were crying,
I too bore your pain,
The same wounds that mar your heart,
O’ how they scar Me the same.

I was with you when you turned away from Me,
My heart broke and I bled inside,
I could only watch you from a distance,
as My advances and My love you denied.

I was with you when you hated me,
when you crucified me at the cross,
I let you drive those nails into me,
you were scared and you were lost.

I was with you when you repented,
and in desperation cried out My name.
"Hush child, I had never left you,
Come and let Me take your shame."

I was with you for the 21 years of your life,
you have brought me great joy and pride,
Will you let me draw closer to you,
it is for this that I willingly died.

I will be with you for all of eternity,
I have sought you from the begining of time,
I will never leave you, nor forsake you,
for you are My beloved and you are mine.

My treasured 21st birthday present; being brought to see phantom of the opera after having waited 12 years. (: